By Catherine Austin Fitts

My use of the word turtle as a verb began in 1998 during a period of extraordinary stress.

Almost all of my 1,001 best friends and colleagues decided to go with the flow of the financial coup d’etat. That meant playing along with the lawlessness towards our fellow man involved. I did not. I split away from the herd.

This made me a target.

Being a target is time consuming. I was ordered by a complex governmental matrix to do more work each week than I had hours to do or resources to fund. I faced a mountain of demands from parties who regularly ignored and broke the law. The double standards numbered in the hundreds, then thousands. My name brand accountants lied and dirty tricked me. My name brand lawyers lied to me. Partners and employees lied and dirty tricked. Family members betrayed. (Story here and gruesome details here)

The ultimate goal was to “kill, steal and destroy.” The process was brutal. There was no mercy and little kindness. The goal was to get me to kill myself or go mad and to so handicap me that I could be proved a “failure” in the eyes of the world.

Instead, I decided to “turtle.”

I ignored the fact that my situation was hopeless and chose to “turtle” forward. I did my best. I went slow and detailed. I never stopped taking action, moving forward.

I appreciated those who helped, no matter how modest their contribution was. I chose to be grateful and to trust that I was moving out of that which was unhealthy to where I belonged.

I made a list of things that gave me joy at no cost called “the beauty list.” When my heart was breaking, I would pull out the list and do something for myself.

I had candles in the office in midday. I took a break to listen to Bach’s Goldberg Variations and return to a state of coherence.

I had a list of “good things to get done” like cleaning out my closets. When the work demands were too frightening or overwhelming and the black cloud of sorrow would let me do no more, I would pull out that list and do a day of “good things to get done.”

No matter how bad things are you can always clean your closets. Or shine your leather goods. Or reorganize your books. Or call someone who is sick or hurting to see how they are doing. Or cook up a slow simmering pot of chicken soup.

When you wake up the next day, progress has been made. Forward action is a “force multiplier.” The divine intelligence has responded with a note of gratitude and support.

Giving up on corporate media, I decided to simply start answering questions that people sent me – by e-mail, by letter, my phone. I believed that the pathway towards where I was going could be found by being useful to people. No better place to start than with the people who are taking time out of their day to ask me a question. Ultimately those questions and answers evolved into the Solari Report.

I did not develop a business plan. I did not raise capital. I just did my best to help people build an honest map of our world so they could navigate wisely. I turtled my way into a business that serves people I care about and helps me live a free and inspired life.

Each day I turtle forth. My situation has improved enormously. However, much of the world’s situation has not. It is as if the lawlessness that I experienced two decades ago is eating its way around the world. As I watch the cultural debasement and financial and legal lawlessness touch another person’s life, sometimes I think with no pleasure “welcome to my world.”

If it touches you today, pay no mind and turtle forth. There is a wonderful world full of good people and good things. Anything is possible when you leave hopelessness behind.

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23 Comments

  2. I am so proud of you. Turtle Forth my friend and we will Turtle right behind you!

  3. Very- Inspirational. Speaking Truth is mush harder than it should be and those speaking it pay a heavy price.

  4. Catherine,
    You are indeed—such—an inspiration! You have helped countless individuals by sharing your experience, your passion for truth and integrity, your desire to help others, and your faith in the gospel of Jesus Christ. I am among those countless individuals and I am grateful for your work.
    Kelley Sark

    1. Thanks, Kelly. It is a messy process….like bushwhacking reality.

  5. It touches me every day, and that’s one reason I continue reading your report. I taught Music Together (music, dancing, singing children 5 and under with a parent) until it became difficult because of “group gathering during Covid-19) So now I use the same methods teaching piano lessons to young students. Small groups in my home, no problem. I continue having connection with good people who want their children to sing and dance, and want that sort of stimulation of their brains. Those are people with whom I can gather and enjoy once a week. Once in a while someone will share something she needs (usually mothers accompany their children), and we have a great time to share positive actions. So I continue gathering people around to help each other. Share teaching someone else’s children math, or history; many parents are home schooling. Without an accepted model of gathering we gather anyway and share ideas informally. I’ll continue to do this until it no longer works or until some other idea pops up. Thanks, Catherine, for your encouragement. couldn’t do it without your wonderful articles that give me inspiration, along with my regular study of Tarot and ancient writings, and anthroposophy. We’re still winning.
    Love,
    Janice Collett

    1. How wonderful! Always a pathway through. Our positive actions create openings for a future that did not exist before we acted. There is so much power in that possibility. I read one one persons website the other day “Truth always has a future”

    2. Thanks, Catherine. I loved to watch him; he has amazing power, but if he can stand being attached in any way to either Gates he’s not to be admired any longer. Drop that one.
      We live by faith; a lot of it makes no sense to me, but some does so we move ahead and then we’ll see what’s happening…..
      Janice

  9. I guess you are re-posting this… This is very beautiful. Thank you so much for sharing, it raised me up several notches. And one other thing to add, for every one thing you get done today, “Appreciate yourself!”

    This is good content for a “How to deal with the darkness kit”…? Some wise people say, pay no attention to the evil, this is the vibration of those people involved in it and therefore their karma. True for some perhaps. Until your neighbor’s or your own(!) house is up for foreclosure! An interesting treatise (from 2011) of how “We the People” can position ourselves for the coming hard times, suggesting “a Second American Revolution, with “almost” no violence” http://ipwebdev.com/hermit/Rebellion.html

    1. Christopher:

      I am glad you found it.

      I spoke with the team about the Dr. Perro interview. We decided to give permission to subscribers to send the transcript or audio link beyond their immediate family – to any friends, wider family and colleagues who you believe would be open to the information and would benefit. I have found it is important to provide to people who really want it and would use it.

      Thanks for the suggestion!

      Catherine

  10. Re. Destiny and the Process of Dying
    I’d love to read that but the PDF is no longer available.
    I’ve experienced 3 deaths and they were all the most beautiful and profound experiences. The 3rd death did so many things – I was able to help the man who had been run over and was dying, it answered a burning question I’d had all my life about the nature of reality, and it completely changed the way I saw the world. There was no denying the reality of the Divine, of spirits and the inner world after experiencing that.
    I also sense an angelic presence when someone dies. It really is the most moving and beautiful experience. It is an honour to be there despite one’s own personal grief.
    When dad died after years of heart disease I felt his relief as he left his poor pain-filled body, it was as though he’d taken off an uncomfortable pair of shoes.
    I could talk about this subject for hours, but I’ll stop now ?

  11. I have a long way to turtle but at least I know integrity when I meet it. Respect.

    Jane

    1. 🙂

      It is a beautiful evening in Halifax. I just had dinner with a wonderful Sister of Charity here is Halifax who is originally from Guatemala. She has been teaching spirituality to young people for many years. I asked her how she starts. She said she starts with gratitude. The first thing she does is to have them keep a diary in which they write down each day the three things they are most grateful for.

      1. I used to do that and it worked. I don’t know why I stopped!
        Maybe I was one of those lacking confidence as in Gideon’s story. Maybe this time I’ll find my confidence. I feel confident in that 🙂
        Anyway, I’ve started gratitude practice again. It was hard stopping at three things.
        Many thanks to you and your friend, the Sister of Charity.

          1. I’ve read Jung’s autobiography several times & this story never registered. Reading it again I have no doubt it is true. Indeed I’ve had my own significant dream about judgement. I read my own ‘book of life’* & knew I had to come back as there was more work to do.

            *I’d never heard this term before but have since found out where it comes from & what it means. There were other details in the dream that I knew were important tho I didn’t know why. I found out all about them about 20 years later. I’ve always found dreams an excellent source of wisdom.

            My faith is strong as can be, it’s the confidence part that needs work. Simply knowing this helps enormously!

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